My Life Is Not A Fairytale..

I'm not crazy...
I'm just wishing..
Wishing that life could be like a fairytale..
But..

Sadly,
It is NOT and will NEVER be...
I wish alot of things..
But, most of it never come true

I dint wish so much..
I just wish for my happiness..
Freedom, a lil' bit understanding from alot of ppl..

I hate the way ppl stare @ me..
I hate the way they look..
I hate the way they think of me..
Like I'm a freak..

I'm not weird..
I just have my own thought..
I'm not weird..
I just have My own way of thinking..
I'm not weird
I just have My own believes..

Don't judge..
Coz, you are not me..
And will never be me..

Don't judge...
Coz, you are not in my position..
You dun know.. How I feel...
You dunno what my heart has been through..

How it shattered into pieces..
And struggling hard to heal it by myself..
But even a healing heart..
Its already scarred...

Let me be what I am..
I wanna be better..
Give me time..
Coz, time is the only way to prove it..

To prove that,
I am a human with a heart..
With a willingness to be the best..
So,

Dun stare at me that way..
Dun look at me that way..
Dun think me that way..
Dun judge me that way...

Let me be..

 Created on : May 30 2010

I Can't Tell

Hard to tell what I feel inside..

Is this love or it is just loneliness...
Is this what I really want or it is just because I don't like the silence..
I really can't tell..

When I am alone he is the one that I think of..
When I feel like having someone next to me..
He is the one I think of too..
So, what is this feeling call?
I really can't tell..

When I saw couple holding hands..
He is the one I think of..
When I saw couple quarreling
I wonder will we be quarreling like that
If I ever be with him??
I really can't tell..

Coz, he was never mine, never will be..
I really wish that this feeling is true..
But, I really can't tell what is this feeling about..